Admitting Myself, Part 1;

Everything bad that ever happened to me that I could think about, I did. I thought about the times I wasn't loved- and no one knew. I thought about the times I hurt myself- and no one knew. I thought about the piercing words others have said about me and I believed them - but …

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Grown Up

I want to be like me when I grow up. I don’t recall someone ever saying that. In fact, this is the first time I’ve strung those ten words in that particular order. I’ve always used someone else in place of “me,” whether it’s one of my parents, a famous person, or someone who chose …

I am;

I’ve come to the conclusion that I am not a writer. I used to think I was, I used to think that some part of me needed writing (and I do), but the way I approach it is very different than the way I think most “real” writers do. And I’m sick of pretending. I …

Beloved Grandma,

Motionless you laid on your hospital bed You looked as calm as summer sea As peaceful as sleep Your life was full of challenges and numerous obstacles Yet, you overcame them all like a pinch of salt You never sulked You never doubted You were as meek as dove You never questioned Him above A …

My battle with Suicidal Idealization/Depression

In our Polynesian culture, suicide is something people don’t openly talk about.  I would like to believe there are people who have gone through what I used to go through but never told a soul or perhaps went on to carry out the act of suicide because they had no one else to turn to. …

All that I’m not-

I know- I am not radiant like the sun, Nor startling like lighting, eye catching like a rainbow, Loud and proud like the thunder. I’m just a girl Who’s taken too long to realize, everything she needs, she’s had within her, Right from the start, To surf through life’s storms, And emerge at the finish …

sticks n’ stones.

It wasn’t just one experience, it was a multitude of them. One after the other like the crash of a carefully assembled dominos cards; in succession. I slid slowly and then rapidly, hitting a few bumps along the way, like I wasn’t already on my way to the bottom. And I learnt on that downward …