It wasn’t just one experience,
it was a multitude of them.
One after the other like the crash of a carefully assembled dominos cards;
I slid slowly and then rapidly,
hitting a few bumps along the way, like I wasn’t already on my way to the bottom.
And I learnt on that downward journey,
I learnt the bitter truth that rock bottom does not guarantee you won’t still get hit.
I watched the solid parts of me break into pieces,
the liquid of my essence dissolve and gaseous parts evaporate.
I was losing who I had ever known myself to be.
It took watching my whole life vanish before eyes for me to realise what life had been trying to teach me for quite some time.
Sometimes, you have to shatter into pieces in order to mold into the “you”, you were always supposed to be.